Why?

It seems like God has been really up to some cool stuff lately in my life. I sit here at my kitchen table and am amazed at the life that I live. I could never have dreamed it any better, well maybe I would be totally ripped and wear skin tight t-shirts everyday, but other than that I cannot complain to much. Recently God has been stirring my heart in the area of connected with Him in prayer and hearing him speak to me and have words for other people. I have been practicing at this at worship homegroup and it has been really cool. I gave a word of knowledge to a lady and 3 other people gave her the same word within the last week, so that was pretty cool. So to say the least it has been difficult lately because I have so much school work and other things to do that I desire that time instead to be pressing in to God and playing music and hearing his voice. Any thoughts?

Bored

So where does boredom come from? I was talking with a friend about it not that long ago and he thinks it comes from the fall. I wonder if Adam and Eve were bored, sure they had things to do, but is that really our purpose to just be busy to do things. I know if I were to sit in a room all day and do not one thing, not throw the trash, brush my teeth, read my bible, things like that. Would I feel comfortable in my relationship with Christ that I would know that I am absolutley loved by home no matter what I do or do not do. I don't know if I could do that. Recently God has really been speaking to my heart about the story of Martha and Mary. Mary set at his feet and just was with Jesus and that was the best thing, while her sister was busy doing stuff. God help me just be and not do all the time. I love you, thank you for your goodness towards me, you are awesome.

Thoughts

So I am supposed to be doing a sermon in 2 weeks and I have no clue what in the world I am supposed to talk about. I feel sorry sometimes for my pastor because He has to do it every Sunday. My wife got a raise today which is really awesome. I am almost done with my tranfer degree, which I am really happy about. Things are good in my life. If I can just get past my struggles I would feel so much better about myself. I sometimes am just so tired of feeling like a loser, like my life does not matter, even though I know that it does I still find myself getting depressed because I feel like I dont do enought things. That is part of my frustration at the same time. Does God need me to "do" things, or does He want me to do things with Him. To live in the moment of whatever I am doing to remember that He is always with me.

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Argggg

So I am taking summer classes and they are a whole lot demanding than I thought they would be. So I just dropped this history class and am taking algebra (which is really difficult for me and Spanish, which is really demanding as well. I know I would not be able to keep up with all 3 so I dropped the History class.

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